TheRealJlow presents...

thenextjlo @ 2008-07-30T16:16:00

2008-07-30T15:35:00Z

"I wanted one life you wanted another,
we couldn't have our cake,
so we ate each other"

TheRealJLow presents July 2008

2008-07-30T15:23:30Z

Honestly when was the last time i did one of these? remember the comments about oh i don't know one girl in our year, rather vile the whole putting something under chairs during assembly (if your still confused i'll give you a hint her names begins with an H) Now that was what? year ten? a lots changed thats for certain.

Now onto jessie bulletin, i know dosen't that sound exciting, ok here goes the huge N*x* work load is over...for now. I have a whole three days until leaving this place we like to call england and make for 'hopefuly' foreign, full of ping pong, swimming and hopefuly a breather i haven't stopped yet. Although my wonderful nanna's gonig ot have to survive without me for a whole week!! i mean how will i survive without her? thats the real Question.

Right now the weather is hot, not as hot as mondays i don't want to move, but pretty damn sluggish. Which isn't helped by the little furry thing my mother has called fish face for the last couple of days, (for the reason that whenever the cat has a fish flavoured pouch, he comes over and puts his face up to yours, i swear fish breathy cats, not fun...) i swear the weather means hes a royal pain in my, you get the point.

onto what i'm listening to...below. Has anyone seen that video, its not that generaly the girl (from hollyoaks, roxy something...) is a bad actress as i don't think she is but the try to hard acting on the video is a little painful to watch, i swear at one point she goes cross eyed, sexy no sorry, better luck at getting it right next time. As for katy perry if you haven't heard her yet, listen, overlooknig the obvious lyrics of her first song, 'i kissed a girl' this is an overly addictive artist...i will now get you all hooked on cheesy music and my bad taste.

"...i hope you hang yourself by you're H & M scarf...you're so gay and you don't even like boys....."

Jessiex

Rhythm Me Red

2008-07-14T19:37:52Z

Post Rhythm weekend, you suffer the downfall of expectation, formly the largest free festival in the world, rhythems downsized after having declared hitchin to have no expansion qualities, so what went wrong, clearly downsizing and charging, Rhythms of the World 08 lacked its freedom and hence its appeal.

While acts continued to impress (on average) through out the day, the inabilty to leave and arrive on demand meant that the good acts where missed as you simply couldn't stand ot listen to any more trash, where before you could wonder from one stage to another, home and back again, this years event meant many went home missing some of the finer acts, having suffered long enough at the hands of world music which held little or no appeal.

New talent was out in force, as unsigned, after unsigned musicians lined up to take their shot at impressing new and exsisting fans, The University of Hertfordshire's own talent was also present, (go team!) in impressing the masses.

Most likely the upsides came from local shop owners and drink and food distributors inside the event who sold out throughout the two days, having restocked periodicaly. They must have made a killing from the weekends adventures inside priory house, who'd have thought that ploace would be the place for rhythms of the world last year when it streached from one side of the town to the other.

Anything which wasn't missed? Those blasted bird whistles! honestly if one more child set those off in the corridors, i may strangle the blighter....

For band info check three counties radio site for the people friendly stage......
Also check out the Rhythms of the world web site for band info.....

RuleBreaker

2008-06-21T16:11:29Z

I just wanna colour outside the lines
but i ain't comnig home for no one
i've been repremanded 'bout a thousand times
i'm a rule breaker, some say i'm a balck sheep
Cuz i like to sleep later
drink until my tummy aches

i'm daddys little girl
bundles of kisses
i'm just a princess
little miss perfect
everyone knows it
but thats another day
theres rules to break...

- Ashlee Simpson 'rule breaker'

"open you're heart sunshine, 'cause it aint going to do it itself."

With all the love in the world, i'm not laughing.

2008-06-15T15:55:25Z

Greetings,
Yes i'm still alive.

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Analogy:

Have you ever been in that situation when the world around you are up in arms in laughter, you sit there going through the motions, laughing along when half way through you realise, yes i'm laughing but actualy i don't find this in the least bit funny.

This i realise is the moment when i know, the time has passed for contentment and by the end of the next year i'll be more than ready to leave. No more going through the motions, and more genuine laughter.

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On a more fun filled note;

A Witch Huntings change is going well, a shorter young adult novel is vastly improving with time and this time, god forbid, i'm revising for it, the amount of books i get to require from amazon, are going to keep me very content indeed. Oh hugo is going to get himself a reputation, i tell you one that i believe takes great inspiration from great male characters of the past.

Sure to knock that damned edward from the hottist vampire post. ~~Edward~~ hugo!!!

Jessiex x

I Got Bullied Into Critical thinking!!

2008-05-21T20:05:22Z

Critical thinking;

Its the subject we all bunk without thinking. Allowing us time to wonder into our third period class having read a book sprawled over the living room floor, only to leave for a late morning starbucks before even mentioning the dreaded,

last period Physics.

Why consider this subject you ponder well for obvious reasons, i was against my will submitted into the most enticipated c''' up of a test ever! The idea of critical thinking they say, (The goverment employees, who in my case, went on strike because you know what they can't have the rockstar lifestyle! no thought to the homeless huh? while you sit back take a sip of you're exspressio. God you'd think the how many weeks we have off every year would be enough, but no, the greedy bugers won't more. Have you noticed that i'm on below minimum wage, for lifting boxes?) So critical thinknig is said to help us think individualy as human beings as individuals.

So my question to the fat slob in parliment, how the hell can i get a right answer to the question? if its individual how do i fail, you know why...becuase i got the f''''''' answer wrong, so this individual lark is a loud of b'''''''.

figures my school would choose to submit us to torture, Makes me wish i took Greek.

Can't speak french or any other language so yeah, i could ace Greek!!

Just cause this can't go on
Just cause when you leave i have doubts
Just because i think of you in bed
Don't let it go to your head

P.s If my music choices weren't enough, theres the most delicate little song i've found, its a gem, so check out Deezer.com and find Elisa, Dancing. You won't regret it, or writting dancing/becoming jane where it perfectly fits such a beautiful story. . .

Here in the ashes i'm not waiting for your reaction

2008-04-19T14:27:22Z

I want all of you or nothing, and you chose nothing

You say could we please…but I don’t want to try

Or hurry back here, of singing song birds

Staying strong, staying strong

i was born a fighter, but you missed all of that
so many things you had to say
but do you realise everything of which you've missed
and now i've stripped your privilages away
you never could get through

so thanks for the breakthrough
no more me coming around
couldn't say your surprise wasn't pleasing
as I creep back inside a seeze control

your still nothing

babe, i took your power away
so thanks for the breakthrough

My future husband is probably out there right now, getting laid.

2008-03-19T22:00:39Z

Aim's having scrolled through you're communities i clicked onto, today i realised and loved it!! having joined i've spent an hour reading and i figured i'd give it a shout out, becuase i love the rush of saying some stupidly honest to the whole world, i love it, so thanks aimee, aim's. Hope you had fun on you're trip today!!

jessie

Everywhere

2008-03-19T19:38:48Z

I am, (it seems) bored out of my mind, insane. i have nothing to do, nothing to occupie my mind its as if its all gone sky ward and i';m wading in waters far too deep, i guess i've got to get away from here. The music i own has put me into a coma of depression, why is it so...un helpful. Got asked to go to this drum and bass thing, maybe i'm a scroge in saying no, again. But for 1 thing, i don't really like drum and bass i think she wants to know people, but i don't want to know drunk, F***heads and druggies and whatever else goes there, so whats in it for me in the long run, that and i don't really like the whole club thing.

What i need and what is missing from hitchin, is some kind of poetry/jazz club, now that i would go to. However i guess its not gonig ot happen and everythnig is just going to go further south, i guess i might as well keep f***ing up, but i have my school work which i now actualy do, i know i want a lot from life, so screw this little town i figure there is so much more i want to do, nothing is going to contain it.

Goodbye to you, goodbye to everything i knew, you were the one i loved, one thing that i tried to hold on to.

thenextjlo @ 2008-03-12T20:04:00

2008-03-12T20:19:56Z

THIS IS A BATTLE AND ITS YOUR FINAL LAST CALL

IT WAS A TRIAL AND YOU MADE A MISTAKE WE KNOW

BUT WHY ARN'T YOU SORRY? WHY ARN'T YOU SORRY,

YOU USED TO BE HAPPY,

TRY

Easter is arriving in a flurry or chocolate, and easter hols means an early morning drive to my favourite place in the world, devon.

i reckon everyone has them, and mines devon, my faviourite place, i don't know why though, its not just my wonderful grandparents its something about, the little streets jsut from the shore filled with little art stores and gallerys, places to find furniture and accsessories. Sometimes i just never want to leave, its like the home i want, fresh salty air, second hand book stores, it jsut makes me think of what i want most, and of what i will divuldge with you, long and boring and pacareious.

thinking about my future i realise, that i'd be happy with less money than i thought, a little cotage or hill top apartment over looking the bredth of the ocean or wide streaching river, like the dart. A study filled with books and paper, pens and pencils. Neutral colours, maybe situated on a beach somewhere in california, work a small part time job and write most of the day, listen to acoustic music, (Aimee Man) i jsut want beautiful things, music, writing, reading, men,

days filled with sunshine and nothing so tragic, a holiday home and delilah would surfice, long road trips, with big engines, good conversation and music, jsut being young and stupid.

P.S devon also means beautiful poetry, for some reason, everything is easier to explain further away,

Jessiex

Sitting by myself and wondering...

2008-03-12T19:57:36Z

I realise that maybe i'm better off, better off
sitting by myself and wondering
if i'm better off, without you boy,

i'm feeling stuck here, against the pavement
i want to break free

(Colbie Cailett- the little things)

I don't know how to put it, but a lot of things have gotten messed up and although i don't really want to lose it, i feel like i am, like the words above, i wonder if i will be better off, not worrying not careing, just being on my own.

But really with the bigger picture opening up, i kinda feel like, its a big picture but i'm tiny in comparisson, which isn't somethnig which usualy happens. i wish i knew what i want to do, teach, write, listen, learn?

I need something, someone i don't have and like a cloud above me, i don't know when and if it's gonig to spit or have a downpour. I hate not Knowing.

I can sense it, but its taking so much time, i wonder if i'll ever get on the journey or jsut be left waiting at the station until its too late to board and i hate not having it, i know now, that i've lost more than one sister and i've already had one of my soul mates, it may have been shit and sucky but if i've had one, do i have one now? or are they eluding me for later, am i too blind to see, until it's gone.

today i forgave

2008-03-12T19:48:55Z

I thought that today was going to suck, enrichment day, wo, bloody hoo, but you know i left the day literaly soaring.

The final part of the day was all about forgiveness, and was pretty damn amazing, we all listened to this girls letter to her abusive father and we all got the chance to write one to someone who has wronged us in the past, wrote the letter and then shredded it and lit a candle.

It was one of those amazing life altering little things, our whole group together sat in church and forgave.

truely monumental, like a little thing you find in books, magical moments reserved for indie flicks. B- e- a- u- t- iful. I think now though, that there are bigger things, i realise the importance of forgiveness, but i think i did before, i just feel that although things feel bad, there are bigger things than broken crushes, late homework, getting out of school and work, it's like the big pictures opened up and i can see it for what it is...

and mainly,

i forgave.

thenextjlo @ 2008-02-26T21:42:00

2008-02-26T21:49:34Z

You Need A Better Reason to make me Write you a Love song.

you're really not who I thought You Were

You're More You're Less

But i'm Not Saying I Like It, Like You

Don't say Its Make Or break, I Can't Switch The Light On

If You Wanted it, Wouldn't You Be Here?

I'm Not Saying It,

                               Just Because You Asked For It,

                                                                                    Because You Need It,

Maybe i'm in over my head, under the weather but i'm not saying anything about it. I need to lie Down, I need a Break, Get In My car, and Search Out shooting Stars...

                                                                                                                                   just because i like it.

Like you, yeah,

                                                          I guess i do.

                                                                                                 You'll break it though you always do.

Confusion and Absolotion

2008-02-26T21:45:12Z

I'm confused.

Not just confused, completely out of it. Didn't think i would ever get stuck in this prediciment, but here i am. already suffering part of my fair share, of confusing days and even more, of telling lies.

i wish life wasn't made of decisions, it would make it a whole damn easier, and then i wouldn't get stuck here
inbetween bliss and total destruction it begs the question how far does this have to go, before it all falls apart.

i just have to hope it won't get my hands burned.

When playing with fire, Someone has to get hurt.

P.S. i have fonud the cutist little foxes to display my moods on my poetry page, screw the poetry, the foxes are sooooo cute!

So, Crazy thought...

2008-02-23T13:52:47Z

Antony gets Daphned

i think it truely was simple, running through my thought process for the book A Witch Hunting, i'm making lasy chapter choices, so now i'm extending my future chapters making them double the length double the excitement, like it, rachel Caines amazing novel, Heat stroke, the book only comprises of two chapters! how rad is that!

Can't write took huge chunk out of my finger at work, Oh! the Pain!!!!!

Silly sets and black plastic (which turns my hands black, i only wanted my nails black, stupid! curse it!) he, He, think i should go do something productive like my work mate.

Promise me you'll...

2008-02-06T20:48:46Z

Never Love me

jessicalow_poet at livejournal

ST Vausis blurbs...

2008-02-06T20:30:23Z

want to know what happens? before it dose? so would i thinking about it...

The Guardian

Nick thought he was passed this. She was gone but not completely, but her light had gone and now he had to face the darkness alone.

She was beautiful, beyond words. She carried a secret though, walked with a big one towering over her and now he was threatening her life.

Mark couldn’t have had a better lot number; he got the girl, the dad, the money, the looks, even the dead dog who hadn’t quite died. Yeah, he had a lot

A hell of a lot to deal with…

A Witch Hunting

The witch was going to get them, get them damn good. Soul less wondering again, washing blood off his shirt again. Time and time again, only this time, his job was hitting a little closer to home. No more running for cover no more throwing stones.

Its kill or be killed, dive or fall burning, the only question really is…

To vamp or not to vamp?

A Tale of Twelve Witches

Twelve aligned by power strong inside, they were bound to destroy themselves, but when the sun took half of them away, the rest were thrust back into the shadows to watch their tales unfurl.

Only when Pandora was born did everything change, the chance to right their wrongs was becoming truer and as old secrets where pushed to the forefront. Pandora's old life is shoved to the side, shame that she just can’t decide.

Griffin and St. Vausis or life out side of the underground?

Angels with Darker secrets: Book 1

“Damn it! Damn it! DAMN IT!”

They shouldn’t have done it, but they did. They shouldn’t have gotten so drunk, should have thought before climbing out the window, and shouldn’t have gotten told off that morning, made those jokes, jumped in the school pool when it was closed, kissed the new bad vamp in town, or found them surrounded by a bunch of communists.

“I really do have to get a better handling of this whole time travelling thing!”

“YOU THINK?”

Bad Magick: Book 2(angels with...)

A Demon kinda’ like me

A Vampire Hunted (Hugo Vol. 2)

Givin' up ain't so sweet...

2008-02-05T21:09:12Z

But i'm done. I can't make miracles

Why is it, now we've hit double figures things are getting complicated. It's like someone flicked the switch off intermediate and hit fast forward and the difficult level. It's like were all walking on egg shells only mine keep cracking, and with my damned media work finished as far as i'm about to lug it, i hate the thing more than 'frickin' (tazmin).

I promise though, with this frustration out of reach, Miss hill's gonig to get whats coming if she F***'s about tommorow and i swear i'm not holding back anything, even if it means shoving that stupid portfolio right up her skinny, boy wanting, heavy breathing, pathetic whingeing, turning up late, no good arse of hers until it hits sunshine again.

What else sucks is that the more shitty work i get given the worse my spelling gets, its like year seven all over again, and spell checker, ain't going to save me tomorrow, i'm just wishing on patience's return, or just a little sleep, i'm asking only for a few hours not spent lying awake, thinking

media, media, Art, Physics, media, english, essay...still not done....unfinished....stupid work....sums, oh god, physics, media, art, medusa, fairies still unfinished, pathetic work buddy....damn people....media....Miss hill getting kicked down the stairs backward....art, art, art...

interesting fact? i like blue shirted spike.

2008-02-03T19:08:08Z

Less interesting fact? I eat pea's.

Good day V.S Bad day.

on the upside today has been L-u-c-k-y! i bought what i wanted found what i wanted. (everyone check out the rachel caine web.site and journal as her weather warden seris kicks arse!

Downside, i'm left with two essays un written for tommorow afternoon, a media project thats more, a few pages rather than full fledged project.

then theres that pesky art project which also remains to be seen.

Three to four days left and counting, can i count the days as helpful, when i've just rememebered last weeks physics which i lost somewhere.

Gee i see myself in detention for the nextyear and say (the rest of my life) thats if my media teacher dosen't eat me first...

Can you help?

2008-02-01T17:32:53Z

Sitting on the sister shelf a moment can any one solve my picture crises, the things jsut won't load! i can't get any where it sucks!

P.S. (Gracie i'm emailing you the opening Witch Hunting, draft one page, as Antony gets...isn't quite finished yet...)

I forgot to ask...

2008-01-30T20:35:12Z

If any one wants to help me rename a chapter for my grandparants!!! please help i don't think i can send them

Antony Gets Daphned in the nuts!!

any suggestions, or want to even know what the chapter is...'cause i guess how can you re name it otherwise, give me a bell, and i promise i'm not pushing, you don't have to even acknowledge this at all....

jessie

Truely odd...

2008-01-30T20:30:41Z

Since i have become split in two, i am at a slight loss not wanting ot release the book i'm writing publicaly without someone asking, i feel that this site may get neglected. But i will not allow it! (just like buffy wouldn't destroy the world! oh yes, i quoted, who has the obsession to counteract?)

WARNING! those of you of a nervous dispersition should look firmly away now! Don't read unless you want a ramble...

I found today at the school of school, a little odd, like an odd out of body expierence actualy often what i'm like at work, kinda there, kinda not, like i'm watching my body move and talk on auto - pilot only i'm not in the driving seat, if you get me? all say eye!) tried to do school work, but couldn't concentrate, so i spent all first lesson on amazon looking up the books and albums i want to investigate with my gracie and hannah, tomoz, but even then i was kinda bored after an hour.

Had english with the ' - Nator...' (those who know, KNoW!) quite funny really though, a good laugh often, strangly, huh? Third was, well, third...

i had it off, what a surprise i should have gone and done my stupid art project(s) but didn't and ended up writing a McEwen Sappy piece which covered three sides full of single narrative prose and found myself oddly enjoying the strange words that nesteled neatly together on the page...and here i go again, it was all this describing an affair in one of my tales in (Tale Of Tweleve) between two forbidden lovers, while keeping it cleanly PG, which is considerably hard, but as my grandparents are my proof readings and only audience, i figure, lets not scare them two early on.... (also if the school need to enhance anything it should be the libary i felt like i wa reading Lady chatleys lover in there, creepy huh? god if anyone ever reads that piece...i'm actualy rather embarressed about it really...not me at all)

Any way i shull stop, having bored you senseless, yes i know i have do not deny the only truth on this ramble.

P.S. Just incase you forgot...I AM jessicalow_poet

jessie.

Availability

2008-01-30T20:12:11Z

Availability of Manuscripts

St. Vausis (Tales of undergronud city)

A Witch Hunting

Chapter 1 - Carrots for stakes

Chapter 2 - The Missing soul Collectors

Chapter 3 - Collect the Pieces

Chapter 4 - Too early For teenage girls

Chapter 5 - The vampire who wouldn't talk

Chapter 6 - Darkness found at dead ends

Tale of Tweleve Witches

Chapter 1 - Heart Of stone

Chapter 2 - Getting out of the dark

Chapter 9 - Guineve and Quinn

Sappy quinn view

Script -

'I have a farm?'

The Guardian

chapters 1 - 10

Zimerframe Grannies

chapter 1

Angels with Darker secrets

chapter 1 - it was love at first bite
chapter 10 - Hugo and i...

(fanfiction)
(cheeringCharms1-4)
(missingyears1-30)

And We have

2008-01-27T22:21:16Z

DIVERSIFICATION! oh YEAH!!

To get my poetry you now have to make that long treck to my sister page...

jessicalow_poetry.

Where we take off with the finished pieces from My Only Demon Is Me

I'm very excited as i googled myself poems by jessica low and i came up as number two on the search. I love my Business stratagies. Any hoo see you soon, i hope!

jessica low

Tears Streaming down my face...

2008-01-06T17:47:14Z

You can’t jump the track

But you tried to

And now you’re mother cradles her head

In you’re hands

But you’re gone

Her baby just yesterday

It fits.

You were already giving up. Giving up

You couldn’t even scrap by a mere twenty one

Be buried here, you soul no longer kept safely inside

Took in you’re hands crushed it

Please breathe if you understand

In you’re eyes lifeless you’re not breathing

She can’t calm the tears fading you right out the picture

She wants to find the rewind to see those eyes still accusing

But she can’t find bliss sitting down at the table

She wants to go back to you’re birthday last year

When you looked so clean, so beautiful

I wish that in these few moments you could just understand

The pain you’re inflicting no longer on yourself

But the world that needs you, please just try breathing

Oh please, oh please, just breathe

You’re drifting, not breathing, barely seeing

As she wipes from you’re forehead

The car that she bought you

Right back in October last year

Don’t leave us behind, oh don’t

Come back and sing about it

We can’t steal you right now

Blocking our souls from the light

Still intact even though their breaking

Threaten our lives that we clung onto

Were all hypocrites all here for the same reason?

Please just start breathing

please, breathe